you never show consideration
you just never let go
that is why you shiver
why you yourself failing
and unable to deliver

when you sit down and look around
what do you see and feel?
do you see an empty void?
one where hope should be

A Shoulder Full of Tears a shoulder full of tears arms clasp but do not feel right but sometimes we … More

they found the approval
that was never doled out
like pocket money
instead of angry shout

fought demons –
with cold and chattering teeth
i pulled up my duvet
and cowered beneath clean sheets

with a body that quakes
and sometimes you act like a child
one clinging to the fake
someone with a lopsided smile

but…
that is alright
just pretend it did not happen
and hold it in so tight

i feel brave
somehow strong
wondering if optimism
will last that long

who is listening to you?
the children…
the husband…
the friends that do no exist?

they will never know
about the hand that reached out
and tried to take theirs
they will never see it