James Garratt – A life lived and recorded in ink since 1992
My name is James and this personal website is an attempt to archive my writing which predominately is (under a loose banner) poetry
I started writing things down at the age of 17 in 1992, initially with no other idea of plan then to keep a record of my thoughts and feelings. Given my growing up experiences it felt like the perfect way to apply some self help therapy
you should have told me
from day one that you hated me
that when traced,
you saw only a father’s face
there is something quite strange
about someone who cannot add
someone who does not add up
there is something quite strange
when asked a question
you duck and dive
hauled back to childhood
when you felt sick inside
to see that the judge was self appointed
i was concerned,
to see that their belly fire was self righteous
Bond it is strange – how not bonding with him how that rejection is treated it is just like my…
does delusion keep you safe?
does it tuck you in when you go to bed?
does it rearrange the furniture –
which lies scattered inside your head
The Taunts the taunts did me no good when you go through childhood being made to feel isolated and somehow…
looks like i am driving alone
once again
looks like i am seeing alone
once again
oh, she used my nickname
and i longed for that closeness –
that we had once built around our frames
the palace of no pain
i was never in the, ‘in crowd’
i was a bookworm
i was never a head turn
especially not in that last year at school
The Boy Behind The Glasses. Poetry and Writing 