that what happened between us
was such a long time ago
but it feels like it is still here
somewhere in the folds

why didn’t you love me?
you had every chance
they kept playing our songs

you can puff out your chest
claim to have won first prize
have you ever had a cup of tea –
that tasted just too sweet?

when i was crying
when i thought i was dying

you find the detail
you understand the nature –
of words said

i tell myself,
that i know, i know you love me
but we never seem to share
i am capsized
but the weight of my own care