Goodbye Marriage

it caught me the other day
it was in relation –
to a conversation I was having –
with one of my work colleagues.
talking in general about our new hours –
i said it doesn’t affect me –
because I am on my own.
and I was caught for a moment,
the surreal nature of my situation –
and the position I am in caught me.
i was not sad or even upset –
but for a second, just a second I had stepped –
outside of the whirlwind and for a moment –
i was looking at it,
rather the being part of it.
i never expected my marriage to break up –
i never planned this for thirty three –
and although many judge in these situations,
we understand why and that is all that matters.
just as I understand,
exactly where I have come from –
if not exactly where I am going.
it caught me though – fair and square
and a situation which up till then –
had worked its way up through the ranks –
from odd to somehow almost normal –
was, suddenly demoted; back to odd again


James Garratt – Thursday 31st July 2008