The Nuance of Emotional Regulation – Written Friday 17th March 2023 (Aged 48)

The Nuance of Emotional Regulation

when i was younger
i simply had no emotional education
too much emotion
or not enough emotion
felt okay,
but the nuance of emotional regulation
never came into play
i could always say i am an emotional person
i am passionate and i believe
and it is okay –
to wear a heart on any sleeve
but that was papering over obvious cracks
frailties,
and the development i clearly lacked
i trusted my emotions –
because their high was easier than education
and easier than asking why
somehow –
and i am slightly ashamed to admit it
i did not think i had to actually learn
or i thought life experience would teach me
as life’s wheel continued to turn
and if i wrote it down often enough
there would be a natural education
and in the end everything would be fine
but it has taken all these years –
to understand this
should i regret and should i wonder what if
because now emotional education is a true gift
buti have lived such an amazing life
i am not sure any of my life could have been missed




James Garratt – Friday 17th March 2023


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