Something Has Been Lost
i can’t explain it,
but something –
something almost intangible
has been lost.
a kind of… enthusiasm,
one that no longer wants to pay the cost.
i sit here,
and i wonder what it is.
i was always buoyed by my particular gifts,
but now, at my age,
the disappointment in leaders
has finally caught up with me.
a realisation that savage experiences
are never free.
maybe i am letting up on me?
maybe?
it used to be that others’ disappointment in me
was crippling,
but really,
my disappointment in others
is now, so much more.
i just can’t explain it,
but i have lost something.
but it’s something
that does not feel so bad to lose.
maybe self ambition is just a ruse.
maybe in the end, there are better things
and a better way to choose.
James Garratt – Thursday 15th December 2024
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Something Has Been Lost – Written Thursday 15th December 2024 (Aged 49)
