Prone to Tearing Myself Apart

Prone to Tearing Myself Apart

it is different
i have never been schooled
in the way i should
you to have realise
a gold star on the register
and ticks in your exercise book
go a long way
people spent much longer
trying to decide what was wrong with me
we lived,
with that kind of, ‘insanity’
because they knew
i may get there first
when you are fragmented
people treat it as a curse
maybe that is,
why i try almost too hard
and why,
i am prone to tearing myself apart
imagine not having to justify yourself
imagine that you do,
or that you did
it becomes so hard just organising
and lifetime will be spent
wondering why your self esteem is in hiding


Monday 1st October 2018