Pain (Originally Untitled) – Written Monday 11th July 1999 (Aged 24)

Pain

i never wanted this
going to tell my children
avoid my pain
avoid letting yourself down like this
keep your head down
don’t take the pain i have taken
don’t give out the pain i have given
it may be the pattern in life
but i will try and protect them
from the blade of life’s sharp knife

i never wanted this
i was always staring
either out of windows or into myself
now it is getting hard to be me
i could almost want to be someone else
i would cry if i could
but i just want to laugh
it is all i have got
that and a mind that does not fit in
and then, all my impossible dreams




James Garratt – Monday 11th July 1999


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