(I Don’t Know Why) I Cared – Written Saturday 3rd December 1994 (Aged 19)

(I Don’t Know Why) I Cared

I don’t know why I cared
I know you were alone
I was scared
I did not want –
to be on my own
I used to wait by the phone
waiting to see –
what your voice would bring
and I used to cry
when it did not ring
I don’t know why I cared
I do not even miss you
now I know that you are not there
I see you some Tuesday nights
your behaviour seems to reflect you
and seems to give away your age
you’re just stuck in a clown cage
you are always there –
just putting yourself down
I do not know why I cared
I must have been scared
as I found you in my home
and I held the dreaded thought
of being alone

James Garratt – Saturday 3rd December 1994

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