Instabilities – Written January 2008 (Aged 32)

Instabilities

i know my instability and i know it all too well
i know of its demons
and those demons know of my shiver
because sanity’s stabilisers
they lie at the bottom of my childhood river
i know my instability
it speaks to me in half dreams
surrounded by shapes and memories of the past
that feeling of terror when i wake
knowing none of it fades that fast
i know my mental health
it can be fragile and so afraid
it’s made up of a thousand broken tear drops
it’s where i was clumsily made
but i am never scared of saying how it is
it is not pretty,
or the most appealing gift
it does not seek respect nor does it crave to be liked
but without those stabilisers
it can be hard, almost too hard to ride the bike




James Garratt – January 2008


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