Spaghetti – Written Wednesday 20th September 2023 (Aged 48)

Spaghetti

outwardly –
what i present in that space –
is not me,
maybe it has become me
maybe…
maybe there is a power –
contained within in my personality
the kind –
that used to be shaped like toxicity
outwardly –
i work hard to be the person –
that i need to be
the one with some kind of functionality
inwardly though,
feelings are just like spaghetti

it is the pursuit of autonomy
but not control,
agency,
but not so much that you somehow fold
i work hard,
and i know have added considerable weight –
to my eyelids
and now,
i watch as the years fall by,
i rub my face,
then my eyes
hanging onto the ideals that we long to be
outwardly i am this,
inwardly though,
feelings are just like spaghetti

James Garratt – Wednesday 20th September 2023

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