i tell myself,
that i know, i know you love me
but we never seem to share
i am capsized
but the weight of my own care

if we care for each other
what has happened to the welfare state
sister or brother
there is no location of the brakes

tonight feels right
windows always look at me
they know me
in a way that –
mirrors never will

i have seen you
as a mistress –
aboard your pirate ship
you are –
always sailing the seas

i was not born like others
i do not work quite the same
i have crossed wires
and it causes spark in my brain
especially,
under my personal rain

i clambered down from the tree
that for a while
had felt like the only place to be
and i reclaimed my smile

who knows why we fall for people
it seems to me,
we can keep on falling
and to me,
that can only be a good thing