they said,
that this disorder,
that they had diagnosed me with
prevented us,
having a relationship

here i am on my bed
empty insecure head
my life so detached

as i sit, i wish on what could have been
i wonder if i could have taken part
in the dance of the moon and the sun

i moved along today, always facing the wind
my head was spinning out on some planet pluto
i waited at the stop for the monster with seats