you said you do not know –
what you are looking for
but in truth –
neither do i

so i issued a memo –
to my brain
now that she had registered
and she had made a claim

and,
they break down
and quickly claim –
as one hand reaches out
whilst the other is insane

and i am not down
or down on myself
no one should desire –
to be somebody else

you look down on me
but it is you –
whose life has derailed
failed to find its destination