Personal Treason
sometimes my life
feels like
i am either chasing
the mythical approval
or i am trying
to over prove a point
i am constantly
challenging myself
for no healthy reason
and the doubt and the fear
is a kind of personal treason
but it feels like
every step is never quite enough
as if i distrust
the love of an affectionate touch
i seem to be
constantly prove a point
which i long ago forgot
but i fear others do remember
the role of somebody else
went to me,
without audition
related to my human emotions
validation is toxin
sometimes in my life
i am not sure whether approval is relished
or it is something that attacks
James Garratt – May 2019
Personal Treason
The Boy Behind The Glasses. Poetry and Writing 