Coming To Life

Coming to Life

do you ever think
i think quite a lot
i think of what we are doing
the i have got
all the things i have
i have been thinking lately
that i am changing
but i keep on thinking
i am not a changeling
my shape, i thought
just remains the same
but all the knowledge,
i could not have bought
inside my head i change
my brain develops a little further
we keep on moving
because to stay still
would be,
no vindication of achievement
and a misrepresentation of how i feel
in the darkness i saw movement
i think they are shadows in the corner
i do not see them come closer
but they do not get any smaller
and i realise they are my fears
they are my demons coming to life
in the darkness of the night
but they do not go away
they are in the crowds i see
during the day,
i am sure they are haunting me

James Garratt – July 1995