Polystyrene Cups (I Miss So Much)

Polystyrene Cups (I Miss So Much)

i have not spoken to you in years
and yet,
we both soaked up each others tears
i drew faces.
on your polystyrene cups
when we both worked at the bank
and,
repetitive work could never be enough
when you friends,
thought i was a good end
to a life they assumed,
was lonely and taught
of course, i let you down
and i could never be enough
but i loved you.
with the very fibres of my being
even though we fought,
missing trains
all the way to Aberdeen
sharing beds,
drunk and well fed
cuddled up,
when the pain was too much
see how,
you still stay me with me
and yet, it’s years,
so many years since i saw you
part of me cannot let go,
the nature of you
taking me in,
when i had nowhere to live
finding faith in me,
when i felt i had so little to give
comforting touch,
drawing faces on your polystyrene cups



James Garratt – January 2019