Losing Faith Part 2 – Written December 1992 (Aged 17)

Losing Faith

losing faith in the world we live on,
losing faith in everything i’ve got.
a distorted reality lives in my head—
i’m afraid of living, not being dead.
i look around: insanity wears a crown,
just open your eyes and look around.
losing faith in all my strange morals,
even starting to question my feelings.
my eyes fix on the fuzzy television screen—
chaos, she is queen,
and she’s created a terrible scene.
maybe i’m a weird boy with a bleak outlook,
a bleak outlook on everything.
last night,
when i flew, i saw distorted shapes,
heard heartbroken screams.
was it just the demon lurking inside me?
or the one inside all of you?
losing faith in my familiar dreams—
no screams, just people who simply exist there.
losing faith in this nightmare,
losing faith in those who think they’re always right.
all i can do is lay awake at night.

James Garratt – December 1992

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