Hate – Written March 1995 (Aged 20)

Hate

do you hate me as well
just about everyone else does…
i have had enough
lost in a world of paranoia
grabbing hands –
that are not really there
never knowing,
but here i am
not even god will give me a break
but then our relationships
has always been kind of love hate
i feel for you, i really do
but i am lost in a world
which just too many shades of blue
i have lost all that i never had
i am sitting here trying to relax
scared to answer the phone
isolation is my killer
just like being alone
even if they are one and the same
i did not create the spirit of chaos
i cannot be to blame
and i am fed up –
of everyone giving me advice
the type,
which just leaves me feeling uptight
and somehow not quite right
i am fed up of hate




James Garratt – March 1995


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