Personal Identity – Written Thursday 8th October 2006 (Aged 31)

Personal Identity

it feels like –
i fought so long, just to be me
but in the end,
i ended up fighting myself
and then,
then i got really lost
and i wanted to be somebody else
oh,
what a mess
i dropped a penny,
then all my loose change
then finally my self respect
i wonder about you
do you think i roll over and let anyone –
try and reconstruct my life?
you must know,
i come armed with the sharpest verbal knife
i am awkward
and i made of stubborn construction
and i know,
i have sometimes struggled to move forward
especially,
in the fallout of self destruction
i have met mental health
and seen its scared looking face
the one that actually reflects us all
the eyes on that face look like mine
but its longing is spent or chained to a tree
you have to realise,
i fought for so long just to be me




James Garratt – Thursday 8th October 2006


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