The Corrupted Years I Now Carry – Written Tuesday 9th May 2023 (Aged 48)

The Corrupted Years I Now Carry

i wish –
things had not been that way
i think emotional deregulation
has so much to say
and she,
she put barriers in my way
i thought i loved her
did i love her?
i am not sure what it was meant to be
i am not even sure
if she ever loved me
some of those people
no longer speak to me
it is true,
parts of me were awful
as i spent those years
corrupting myself,
imploding like a distant star
the foulness of me readily leaked
i sit with the shame and guilt
a type of which i can never speak




James Garratt – Tuesday 9th May 2023


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