Learned Helplessness – Written Monday 26th February 2024 (Aged 49)

Learned Helplessness

irrational thoughts, maybe,
but they dance,
and lead me under duress,
i then wonder if self diagnosis
is just really learned helplessness
irrational thoughts, maybe,
but here i am,
and i dare to speak,
as those thoughts take hold
maybe it is not noble self improvement
but a form of self imposed control
irrational thoughts, maybe,
but i must improve and constantly redefine –
the context and subjectivity –
of what i call best
i refuse to lean on self examination
because i am concerned –
that it is a form of learned helplessness
irrational thoughts, maybe,
and maybe this one is over thought
but my mind is a busy terminus
where so many trains are caught
but as i shuffle,
and as i move within the nest
i continue to fear, that for me,
any form of self diagnosis,
is just another form of learned helplessness

James Garratt – Monday 26th February 2024

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