Deserving / Undeserving – Written Thursday, 23rd January 2025 (Aged 49)

Deserving / Undeserving

We deserve much better than this.
Is this just a daydream,
or the pretend wish—
what is dreamt up by an amateur scriptwriter
with a poor idea to pitch?

Can I escalate my hope?
Can hope find a better way to live?

We deserve much better than this.
We have no trailer to hitch,
and every matrix in time and space
comes with a human glitch.

I hold myself tight,
cup my hand to my ear.
The sound of praise and applause
is quickly followed
by the sound of my fear.

Because I know
they do not want me here,
and they push me, push me, push me
into a corporate beck.

I wonder if I really am—
if I really am that much of a threat.

And as I recoil from the mist,
I sit down with a look in my eyes—
one which says:
we deserve much better than this.

Who needs this bedrock of lies?

James Garratt – Thursday January 23rd 2025

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