everything i do
sometimes it feels –
as if i am fighting through

Circus i step back – and leave the circus having gone through – my various acts there seems – to … More

seeing the best in people
but often as an accompaniment –
to a childhood –
that was dogged –
by a lack of approval

and it is sad,
that people constantly sabotage lovers
it is sad that there is a lack of trust
and a lack of self esteem

i have knelt on your holy floor
i have prayed for so much more
i have climbed your dreamy spire

i sailed down the river
as a twenty something
just trying to deliver

they do not contact me
but they always –
lap up –
the attention and compliments
like kittens lap up milk

you are so fucking perfect
how?
how have you not achieved more?

years ago –
propped up –
on the settee
just you and me

i will be your –
little boy lost
and your views
will come at a cost