i wish you had not left
and i wish you had stayed
but in amongst the mess
the one that i have made

maybe you are beautiful
maybe i can save myself
find the potential,
that i thought had passed onto somebody else

loving you is too much
and it is a one way street
a closed road,v when i could be using my feet
i cannot keep on idolising you
putting other goddesses to one side

someone called me sweetheart
and my heart began to melt
I wondered to myself
how i truly felt
gripped by affection

the tears and tantrums
the endless and unrelently
emotional demons
that no one could ever meet
the child like maturity