Using My World
listening to my feelings
i am scared of their meanings
admitting to yourself
is the hardest thing
examining your feelings
trying to suss their meaning
i am so scared, feel trapped
feel like i am locked deep underground
and i cannot get out
i am clambering and climbing to get out
but it is getting me nowhere
you do not know how bad it is
i feel such a failure
like i can never get things right
why does it happen to me
or at least that is the way it seems
she is probably using me
not that i have much
only my dreams
not that they mean much
at least not to most human beings
she can have everything i have got
if she really wants my feelings
James Garratt – July 1995
Using My World
The Boy Behind The Glasses. Poetry and Writing 