The Absolute Crush of Expectation (Originally Untitled) – Written Friday 12th August 2005 (Aged 30)

The Absolute Crush of Expectation

it sickens me
that i cannot hold them
and tell them, it is okay
i feel ashamed
and there is not much to say
forced on the run
before my feelings begun
now i am too far ahead
i cannot turn back
the bells of shame ring inside my head
i know they need a cuddle
i have been told what to do
i have looked inside
but the feeling i just cannot find
i do not have the skills to cope
i do have the belief of hope
i feel ashamed
and there is not much to say
if only they had found me
from a past that is not known
and a refusal to understand
how i have grown
it sickens me
i am sick to the core
they need a cuddle
the need to be held
i just can’t do it




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James Garratt – Friday 12th August 2005