Confused and Conflicted – Written Monday 27th January 2020 (Aged 44)

Confused and Conflicted

people ask how i feel,
i am not sure
but then, what is real?
the moment you never share
or the day you spent trying to feel
people as how i feel,
i feel confused and conflicted
my clear sight,
is possibly restricted
when does, ‘okay’, become, ‘okay’
i figure, as i try with the digger –
that it is a buried away
but i know with your hands
we will find a way

people ask how i feel,
dad finally, sailed away
all his restlessness was finally put to bed
that damage haunting him.
the things in his head
something offered a way out
and out he has been truly led
i feel confused and conflicted
quite where did we end up,
in that time, those final later years
at what point did i accept,
and was it the moment,
when we all just felt like less
people ask how i feel




James Garratt – Monday 27th January 2020


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