True Feelings – Written Friday 17th February 1995 (Aged 19)

True Feelings

i wonder how you feel
mixed up and confused?
i wonder if it feels the same –
as being used
because that is what you have done
if you want to pretend to be an adult
you cannot use the excuse that you are only young –
when things go wrong
you cannot have the best of both worlds
as much as you and we would like to
i hope one day you out grow your friends
especially with their sheep like nature
and i hope they do not forget you
when they forget their silly trends
i wonder what you wanted to say
when you called today
you must have felt weak
not having the decency to speak
but do not worry i have got the message
after all, that is the first time you have phoned –
in two weeks
i am not that stupid, i do not want to know
i do not care for your excuses
you cannot explain away hurting someone
after they have lost their usage
it is not that, that is not healing
it is the way you have shown no respect
not for my true feelings
and although i have hurt people and i have been cruel
your behaviour is not something i would ever do

James Garratt – Friday 17th February 1995

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