my mental illness and well being
is a response to experience and trauma
and in my teenage years,
through my twenties,
it socially disabled me
In My Dream He is There – Written Wednesday 19th February 2020 (Aged 44)
i will make something,
one last thing
the emotion welled up
but i knew it was a dream
it was like,
you were the practical dad
that never was
Fell Apart – Written Tuesday 18th February 2020 (Aged 44)
perhaps i go back
to days
when i more easily fell apart
days when i was responsible
even though i just had heart
Marzipan Life – Written Tuesday 18th February 2020 (Aged 44)
and none of it these days –
tastes very nice
but what did we expect
they have spent time –
reinventing the wheel
burying their past
just next to how they feel
Thirty Something Party (Originally Untitled) – Written October 2010 (Aged 35)
is it just a thirties thing
has the party reached a point
where the alcohol we have desired
and the food we have craved
has all been drunk and eaten
The Settlement – Written Monday 17th February 2020 (Aged 45)
those people will never opt for change
they have their settlement,
and why would they,
opt for revolution
to them is no problem
Showering Praise (Originally Untitled and Unfinished) – Written October 2010 (Aged 35)
you went
from showering praise
to digging the earth
for my grave
Presumption – Written Monday 17th February 2020 (Aged 45)
people do not know me
they presume they do
people do not know you
they presume they do
Ego Boost (Originally Untitled)- Written October 2010 (Aged 35)
it is a game
i know,
i see,
an ego boost
for a fragile reality
Truths Come With Sharp Edges – Written Monday 17th February 2020 (Aged 45)
they use death to reinvent him
into the person he never was
they reimagine him.
and clothe him in much softer cloth
