if you believe –
that he walked out on you
just because he,
in your mind is autistic

do you know that no one blames you
not for what you believe,
with my open arms,
i appreciate your hurt

i cannot see the understanding
that you claim,
i cannot see the understanding
in a label you have given me

thirty nine symptoms of autism
that is what you said,
and i am number thirty one
destined to be ill fed

i don’t understand they why or the how
i want to sit down and make them see
make them understand my pain

Hollow And Empty hollow and empty and left, feeling such a fool i want to justify it but i just … More

You Never Wanted Me i realised with so much sadness that you had never wanted me and yet, how eagerly … More

Jump Through Hoops i felt sad because it became apparent that you never read any of my letters or listened … More

it feels like –
i fought so long, just to be me
but in the end,
i ended up fighting myself

all these issues that stem from childhood
the ones that leave us as confused adults
we pick over the shards of the smashed window