ill gotten thought
sexual tension –
found a number
and then a reason

but that is not true
this is for the person –
for whom dreams never came true

i have not been silly –
with someone for a while
got lost in jokes
and dined out on a smile

saw you lunge
at something more square
i found your talisman
and a cupboard more bare

i find people
and marry their attention
to my sense of worth
and my need for distraction

maybe it is approval
telling me it is a joke
maybe it is the valid attention
or the tears that choke

you knock me out
with your sparkling conversation
and your estuary english
and homebrew dictation

i say,
please fill it up
please feed me
and please, never stop

let me tell you
just how it feels
i let you inside
and you stole from the till

Scrabble Scrabble she played scrabble with my emotions she tried to construct words but the tiles and the letters were … More