Ego and Feelings – Written Friday 29th November 2024 (Aged 49)

Ego and Feelings

when it’s me,
it’s just me—
this is the way i am.

it’s just james,
being james.
you know,
he doesn’t quite take it in—
the value,
it isn’t there.

and then i linger on me,
knowing how hard
such things hit me.
but it’s always presented as—
just james,
being james.
and therefore,
it’s unlikely to be true.

the problem, you see,
has to be me,
not their point of view.
pat me on my head,
tell me
that i must be on my way,
doff my cap of insecurity,
because what else can i say?

any ambition,
or hope for something better,
has to be balanced
with ego and feelings.
somehow, somewhere,
i know i do understand the meaning.

James Garratt – Friday 29th November 2024

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