i lay down crying
feels like i am dying
i wake up only feeling
staring at the ceiling

all my life
always –
had to fight
that is the way –
it has always been

i do not feel nothing at all
i do not feel much,
except emptiness
i do feel a fool,
can you imagine something deep
it is always the same

what time –
do you want me to be there?
does it matter –
anyway?

in the churchyard
the sunset compliments the scene
i dream of this sort of beauty
but i can never seem to capture –
it in this life

whatever happened to her –
to laura?
she used to be everybody’s dream
but now,
i have just seen her, after all this time

i am trying to make my night
but it is not working –
and not a thing is going right
this weird
and this is not right

let’s move away to the country
how about it?
you and me,
i have been by the seaside too long

they ran away from me
knew that i had begun
to be a real person –
with a life

one day we change
one day we are not the same
not as we were before
one day we talk differently