i never wanted this
i was always staring
either out of windows or into myself
now it is getting hard to be me

i am looking inwards
and my friend, i see twilight
come in, through the skylight
be warm, by the firelight

i stared at my reflection
it looked lovingly at me
how can i be alone
when there seems to be another me
another chance in another reality

and i have been facing it all week
just sometimes i wish you would cut the cold
cut the, ‘stand offish’
and let yourself be held

they have slowly stripped me
of every trick i wear
they have left me shaking
unshaven and long haired

a lifetime alone
is a lifetime in a distant kingdom
as a king but no queen on the throne
a lifetime stuck in muddled verse

the witch broke my bridge
the wizard wrote my story
the relative was in my mind
and stealing my name
but identity is no more than skin deep

to feel real
to feel alive
and to have a point
could be all we are

bless the hand that takes you
moulded by the world
in which you grew up
moulded by those –
who loved you as a child