i said my goodbyes
had not seen him for many years
sat in the car
and remembered my fears

a dark haired woman
takes hold of me
i am filling up lists
who knows why this carries on

i never thought about it
no not before
here i am though
unexpectedly, almost thirty four

it is how i feel
i know i am flawed
but with the crazy people
i know i am adored

you said, replace you –
with somebody else
but nobody is replace
just feelings on another stage

i could fall for you
get tangled in dreams
believe i am better
than my limited means

talking to you did not help
a lack of responsibility
clings to your shelf
a denial of things –
acting as somebody else