my sweet surprise
in a box

this un-prising of fingers
it sad but true
it is time we left
and time we grew

what do you want
your cake and it
my drum to destroy?
a tune, and you beat it

i missed you over the weekend
but i have crazy thoughts
i would, i admit,
consider taking it further

i said my goodbyes
had not seen him for many years
sat in the car
and remembered my fears

a dark haired woman
takes hold of me
i am filling up lists
who knows why this carries on

i never thought about it
no not before
here i am though
unexpectedly, almost thirty four

it is how i feel
i know i am flawed
but with the crazy people
i know i am adored

you said, replace you –
with somebody else
but nobody is replace
just feelings on another stage

i could fall for you
get tangled in dreams
believe i am better
than my limited means