Self Inflicted Blows – Written Saturday 23rd July 2011 (Aged 36)

Self Inflicted Blows

right now the dice have not rolled
not in a way i would like
the numbers have not come up
but i cling to the bannister of life’s escalator
knowing, hoping,
that the next floor,
will be much be better than this
i have contemplated getting pissed
and staggering till my head falls asleep
taking with it my heavy heart
but you keep me there and you love every part
it is true, the depression and the mood swings
which the depression finally brings
and the highs and lows
which cause me so much trouble
are no more than self inflicted blows
and they have all become so jolly unkind
but i know now, there is a future,
once which me and you will find




James Garratt – Saturday 23rd July 2011


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