When She Went Away – Written July 2012 (Aged 37)

When She Went Away

when she went away
all i wanted to do was grieve
all i wanted to do,
was feel all of my loss
and every day since,
has come with a tangible cost
all i wanted to know,
was that i was not on my own
that it was not just me paddling
and that i was not alone
tell me,
why do i have to be strong
in such an immeasurable storm of grief
why can’t i just crumble in my sleep
i need peace and quiet
and a long term sleep
of all the times in my life
never have i felt so in need of touch
to fly like a kite,
and come back down to love
is it all too much?
it feels like the world,
is upon my shoulders
and although i know it is not
as the days pass,
sometimes that is quickly forgot

James Garratt – July 2012

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