What I Used To Be – Written July 2009 (Aged 34)

What I Used To Be

looking back at me,
on what i used to be
now, these days,
it is hard to recognise my life
in fact,
it is hard to recognise me
these days,
i place my hand on a knee
and its like a judgement call
that someone makes about me
but, they do not know me
or who i am
still, the attacks do hurt
but, then,
they choose not to understand
and hide when it does not work
i know,
that if i found them
by the side of the road
losing dreams like a smoker loses phlegm
i would not go
i would stick around for them
looking back at me,
who did i use to be?
these days I should not have to justify
just to set myself free

James Garratt – July 2009

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