Fits And Starts – Written November 2010 (Aged 35)

Fits And Starts

i do not talk about my fits and seizures
the ones i experience at night
but i don’t talk about them in the context –
of how they affect my life
or how they leave me so tired,
drowsy and ill for the next day
i have never mentioned it,
so when you perked up and swore
listing your problems –
like you were throwing open a door
figuring i must have none
or perhaps none that you saw
perhaps you need to think just a little deeper
yet i do not claim a disability
just because i am a poor sleeper
or that for me, sleep is a slog and a battle
a fight of fits and starts
it scares me to death –
listening to the maddening beat of my heart
so swear on with your anger and your rage
and your selfish spittle and spite
think of others, try being me for a night




James Garratt – November 2010


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