Doing the Best I Can – Written April 1999 (Aged 24)

Doing the Best I Can

i am trying to stop the fighting
i am trying, but it is difficult
i and trying to learn
and i am trying to let go
but in my fear
it appears,
my grip has tightened
i am trying to settle inside

i am trying to stop the fighting
i am trying, i really do try
but the gloves are hard to take off
but they are coming off slowly
and when there is turmoil all around
it feels strange to be somewhere unknown
it makes you see how much you have grown

i am trying to make an effort
but sometimes other people make it difficult
that is not an excuse
believe me, it is the truth
i am learning to calm down
it is like a course of self therapy
i am learning to take control
if only for the sake of my sanity




James Garratt – April 1999


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