so it stands up
and beams a smile across its face
why is it, female company –
and female arms, i run to embrace

and saw little reason
to heavily invest
i could see there was no justice
frankly, i was too busted

when –
my ugly side is there
when my selfish stupidity
just wants to share

Someone to Help Us we all want – someone to take it all away it is natural and that is … More

and another plunge
into the pool would have occurred
with no idea
of how to survive

someone,
i put together
to be my spokesperson
someone,
to learn my lessons

I think people know…
i smile –
but they worry
that underneath i have a mantle of sadness

he girls,
they always have a soft spot for you
i know,
it is true

and, when i look at you –
i do not know what to do
i know,
it is not my job to fix

i think you grieve
for her life and not just her death
death has just allowed –
a more open and expansive grief